“That kinda love’s a sin, ya know. A goddamn abomination. That’s why the good lord took her. Shouldn’t nobody love anyone that much.”
“But you did,” I replied.
-Rose on the Gray
“From now on you are a rock. You absorb nothing. You say nothing. And nothing breaks you.” - Frank Underwood - House of Cards
“I did not want to think so much about her. I wanted to take her as an unexpected, delightful gift that had come and would go again - nothing more. I meant not to give room to the thought that it could ever be more. I knew too well that all love has the desire for eternity and that therein lies its eternal torment. Nothing lasts. Nothing.”
- Erich Maria Remarque
I feel like crying.
I want to cry, but I will not.
Not now, not when people will hear,
and wonder why a grown man,
of sound mind and body,
is howling into the night.
Structural Dissatisfaction: Returning to circumstances that once pleased you, having experienced a more thrilling or opulent way of life, and finding that you can no longer tolerate them.
Sometimes it feels like I’m constantly waiting for something, the other shoe to drop, the next phone call, an email, the minor course correction that changes everything. I am hovering over the to-do list today, a little too antsy to settle into any one thing.
I will treat myself to words tonight. To hell with everything else.